And now I just sit in silence.



I have these thoughts
So often I ought
To replace that slot
With what I once bought
‘Cause somebody stole
My car radio
And now I just sit in silence


I ponder of something great
My lungs will fill and then deflate
They fill with fire
Exhale desire
I know it’s dire
My time today

Sometimes quiet is violent
I find it hard to hide it
My pride is no longer inside
It’s on my sleeve
My skin will scream
Reminding me of
Who I killed inside my dream
I hate this car that I’m driving
There’s no hiding for me
I’m forced to deal with what I feel
There is no distraction to mask what is real
I could pull the steering wheel

I ponder of something terrifying
‘Cause this time there’s no sound to hide behind
I find over the course of our human existence
One thing consists of consistence
And it’s that we’re all battling fear
Oh dear, I don’t know if we know why we’re here
Oh my,
Too deep
Please stop thinking
I liked it better when my car had sound

There are things we can do
But from the things that work there are only two
And from the two that we choose to do
Peace will win
And fear will lose
There’s faith and there’s sleep
We need to pick one please because
Faith is to be awake
And to be awake is for us to think
And for us to think is to be alive
And I will try with every rhyme
To come across like I am dying
To let you know you need to try to think
This is an unusual post, I know. Song lyrics. What are you doing, you may ask. This is a lazy blog, you may say. But no. This song keeps coming back to me. And it speaks volumes.

There is so much noise around us. For example, right now, the radio is playing overhead. Students are chatting. Someone is singing with the radio. I have my phone next to me. I am typing on my computer with four other tabs open.
Maybe we should all lose our car radios. Instead of looking for music to listen to, a television show to watch, a new game to play, another blog to read, let your mind relax. “I ponder of something great. My lungs will fill and then deflate”.

There is no sound to hide behind. We’re all scared. Believe that things will be better. Believe that things will work out. Turn off the noise and the distractions and stop avoiding your fears. Stop avoiding life. “There’s faith and there’s sleep/ We need to pick one please because/Faith is to be awake/And to be awake is for us to think/And for us to think is to be alive”.

Go listen to 21 Pilots. Go see them perform, they put on a fantastic show.

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signing off,


ps. this post was supposed to be about the wet and cold weather and the massive amounts of snow we received. This song makes me feel warmer than any of the songs I would have recommended.

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